Hey! Here is my latest post! I have not done any editing on it but I will later!
There have been times in my life where I have felt like everything in my life is spinning out of control. I have literally felt at moments that I have fallen off a ledge and into a dark and bottomless pit where I just keep falling further and further away from God. He promised that he would never leave us or forsake us and that he would always protect us, but honestly there was a time where I seriously questioned that. Why, if he promises all this does he allow me to go through so much pain? How do I know that he is all powerful if he doesn’t stop all these bad things from happening to me?
One night I sat in my room when I was in seventh grade and I cried for hours on end and I begged God to show up and give me some answers, I begged him to give me peace that he was all powerful and that he would always be my security. He led me to Psalms 135:5-6 which says “For I know that the LORD is great, and that are LORD is above all GODS.” In that moment God brought me to my place of brokenness and I felt a sense of love and security that was unfailing, I found peace again and all fear was lost. In all my pain and brokenness God was still protecting me even when I doubted him and I knew that he could bring something beautiful out of something that seemed so horrible. Through all my pain I had lost myself but God still had a hold of me.
All I had to do was live within his promise and my life would be more then just fine because of the plan he had for me. Nothing just automatically got easier after that but everyday God walked me through it and it got to be easier until I got to where God wanted me to be.